![]() “I was just trying to be encouraging.” I told my husband (with a pout) after he pulled me aside during a dinner party to tell me I had interrupted a friend before they’d barely had a chance to tell their story. Somehow, my husband and I didn’t see eye-to-eye on my conversation style. He thought I was being rude, and I thought I was rescuing the person from the isolation one can feel sharing personal details. After a good amount of reflection, and some more pouting (ineffective, might I say), I realized my husband was right. I realized during my time of reflection and observation that not only do I interrupt people to encourage, I also interrupt to:
Interruption is also common in workplace teams. I have been on teams where people didn’t hear or reflect on anything the speaker was saying. They were simply waiting for the speaker to breathe so they could give their own opinion or ideas. Do you see yourself in these reflections? If you do, don’t worry—this is human nature. We have experiences and opinions to share. This isn’t all bad. The question to answer is: When to speak and when to be silent?Throughout history people have been trying to answer this question. I learned a lot about listening on a recent trip to Ireland. We visited several monasteries that were established around the 4th century (maybe earlier). From the beginning, monks have had the highest regard for silence. After reading the monks’ guidelines for speaking, my 16-year-old said: “If you did all these things, you would rarely speak.” He might be onto something. Here are the five standard guidelines for speech (summarized):
The Bible is also filled with teaching about speaking. I found at least sixty Scriptures on the benefits of listening and silence. As we close today’s blog, here are a few Scriptures to consider and meditate on: Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. (James 1:19-20 ESV) Even a fool who keeps silent is considered wise; when he closes his lips, he is deemed intelligent. (Proverbs 17:18 ESV) Do you see a man who is hasty in his words? There is more hope for a fool than for him. (Proverbs 29:20 ESV) A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion. (Proverbs 18:2 ESV) The wise of heart is called discerning, and sweetness of speech increases persuasiveness. (Proverbs 16:21 ESV) Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. (Philippians 2:4 ESV) DISCUSSION QUESTIONS
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I didn't know how tired until I face planted in my lunch the next day. I dragged myself to the car, having to concentrate lifting my foot as high as the curb. I kept my eyes open long enough to crawl in my car, and I slept for two hours in a crowded parking lot. I realized jet lag was more than tired. This was beyond my control! Burnout is much the same. I think of burnout this way…there's a dark recess of your mind that is the end of you. The bottom of the rope, the last step before the cliff, that moment just before you fall asleep...the end. That place is a different spot for different people. Some people have a deeper reserve and can take much more of what life can throw at them. Others have a shorter fuse and reach their spot of depletion sooner. Either way, burnout takes you to a tired that sleep doesn't fix. I found that dark recess in my mind I didn't know existed until now. Burnout. I feel stupid and weak admitting I was there. The lack of admission was part of the reason I got there. Because I feel stupid and weak admitting I have this breaking point, and I let my actions and the actions of others break me. Being in ministry means being about people.Honestly, I like helping people. I don't say that to make myself seem all humble and servant-like. If you know me, you know servanthood does not come naturally to me. Being bossy on the other hand does come naturally to me. I like helping people realize stuff. I am addicted to that moment when a girl sitting in front of me has the realization she can walk in total freedom from the past bad choices she has made. Or that moment when my husband and I are working through marriage problems with another couple, and they realize sticking it out is far more rewarding than being a quitter. There's no drug or alcoholic beverage that tops the exhilaration of seeing someone turn around and change their behavior for the better. I'm addicted. I admit it. I love seeing people be happy and work out their problems and I LOVE that I get to lead people to God's Word and watch their lives unfold. There is this turning point, though, when you are in the business of helping people, that often times you start taking in information only to pass it back out. You hear a great sermon, a wonderful song, a cool quote, and you think "I could use that in a blog post. I need to tell my pastor wife friend about this podcast. I need to share this book with my friend who needs to hear this. I need to livestream the sermon so this other person can hear it who is at home with a sick child." And before you know it, everything you take in is getting passed right through you to other people. Even your morning devotions become note-taking sessions for others. Nothing is sticking, nothing is getting snagged for YOU! ...before you know it, everything you take in is getting passed right through you to other people.During this season of burnout and comeback, we took a sabbatical for three weeks. My husband Jack and I went to a different church one weekend. We wanted to go some place we could just go in and sit down and go to church. We haven't done that in something like 14 years. It was an amazing feeling. I had forgotten how much I love God's Church and His people. Now keep in mind, I was reading the book, "Leadership Pain" by Sam Chand while I was on sabbatical. Guess what the whole sermon was about that morning? You guessed it. Leadership pain. God definitely had something for me that morning, but instantly I started the pass through. I thought of my friend who needed to hear a certain quote. I thought of all the people I knew who I wanted to hear this sermon. It was an incredible message. But I was in the middle of the pass-through, thinking of all the people I could minister to from this sermon when God so sweetly showed me...maybe it's just you who needs the ministry right now. He showed me how it was alright to let these words from Bishop Walker at Mt. Zion resonate with me, and only me, for that moment. Tears filled my eyes and I allowed myself for the next hour to just sit and soak it all in. I did not want to miss one moment God had for me. I stopped the pass-through and I snagged every morsel taking notes as quickly as my thumbs could type. It truly was a wonderful feeling. So many of us in ministry want to see our church family succeed. We deeply want the best for them, so we get in this state of pass-through, not retaining any of the wisdom and knowledge we hear from others to teach us, lead us, and help us grow. We eventually become empty; nothing more than a slot machine. Put in a quarter, pull the lever, out comes the advice. It's okay to keep the pass-throughs going. But take time to snag some for yourself. Or better yet, snag the whole thing for yourself; let it steep for a while; then continue the pass-through. I challenge all my pastor friends, counselor friends, pastor's wife friends to notice how often you go into pass-through mode. The next time you realize it, stop and think about what you're hearing or reading and how it can apply to YOUR life first, and you will take a step in guarding yourself against burnout. DISCUSSION QUESTIONS
This blog by Sheila Harper was posted on Dec 11, 2017 at Sanctuaryministrywives.com. Sheila and her husband, Jack, have been in full-time ministry at SaveOne since 2000. The couple planted a church in 2007, so Sheila has been a pastor’s wife for 10 years. Sheila and Jack have two sons, ages 27 & 29. "Neither are married, but I am looking for wives for them so I will be one step closer to having grandchildren," quips Sheila. When asked what shaped her ministry philosophy, Sheila answered, "Pain. Plain and simple. I started SaveOne from a place of wanting to make sure others didn’t experience the same pain I did after an abortion. I wanted everyone to know the truth of what abortion really does to you." As far as the church, "what shaped my ministry philosophy was realizing, if I’m not healthy I could derail my husband’s ministry. As a pastor’s wife I am possibly the most vulnerable in the whole church. I have to take time for soul care, and the whole church remains healthier because of it." Sheila enjoys "hiking, drinking coffee, hiking, reading, hiking, hanging in my hammock in the woods, and hiking" when she comes across some free time. Sheila's greatest passion in ministry comes from seeing people be transformed from the inside out. "When a person walks in and doesn’t know Jesus, gives his/her heart to Him, lets themselves be discipled, and their life start to come together….I don’t know of a greater joy than that."
![]() It is not necessary to include every word written in my journal—it would take months of weekly posts to do so. What IS important, is for me to convey to you how big, how loving, how faithful, and how amazing our God is. If He can do this new thing in me, He can and will (if you let Him) do it for you. That is my prayer! If you would like to catch up with last week’s blog, click here. Several days after my trip to the ER, my husband felt it necessary for the two of us to get away to a place of quiet and solitude for healing to begin. Restlessness and anxiety were something I could not shake. I thought I was losing my mind. January 16, 2011, 9:11 P.M. "I stood in a place I have never stood before, challenged to let God work through the process of healing my mind and restoring rest to my body. God led [a pastor] to send us a text sharing that while praying for us he felt led to have us read Psalm 27. Not knowing the specifics of [our] needs, he truly heard from the Lord. Verse 1 reads, ‘The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?' That chapter was meant for us!" On the last morning of our get-away, we attended service at the church where this man pastored. Before his message, I went forward for prayer, claiming God's healing in my life. The message he preached penetrated my soul. The following morning I journaled: January 17, 2011, 2:00 A.M. “'The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.' Proverbs 18:21. In Jesus’ name, I take hold of the word you shared with Don and me…I am healed, in Jesus’ name. The things spoken to me through your Word are for me and I accept them, claim them, and stand upon them for they are life to me." “The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Proverbs 18:21. However, the next night I again woke with anxiety, fear gripping my mind. January 18 "I cast it (anxiety) on Jesus and I repent for allowing fear to take its grip on me. Lord, I give you every thought that would attempt to ‘exalt itself against the knowledge of Christ’ ['and take every thought captive to obey Christ,' 2 Corinthians 10:5.] For I know that You are able to keep [that] which I have committed unto You. I speak health over my mind, body and soul. I am healed and I walk in total VICTORY!" "We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ," 2 Corinthians 10:5 Here me out—I didn’t feel victorious at that point! I didn't feel healed. But, I knew the truth of God’s Word and by faith I began to declare my wholeness. January 21, 2011, 12:40 A.M. "Oh, Lord, you have spoken to my heart many times in many ways. I’m tired and weary and ready for rest. Yet, there must be something you need me to learn during these times in the night. I’m reminded of the scripture I read last night in Psalm 30, '…weeping lasts for the night…joy comes in the morning [my version]. I’m ready for 'the morning.' [Scriptures continue to come to my mind. Applying the principles of God's Word, I declare truth over specific areas of my life.] "'Psalm 27:1, 'The Lord is my Light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?' "'God’s Word is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.' Hebrews 4:12 ESV'" God's Word is powerful! If you aren’t using this weapon of offense, you are missing out on the life that God designed for you. January 22, 2011 "Lord, you have blessed me with Your Word. You have spoken TRUTH to my heart. I am encouraged as Your Holy Spirit has so beautifully led me to scripture to speak to [me]. I’m in a place I have never been before. I crave God’s presence; time with You. I need You more than ever before!" What I hope I have conveyed to you through these few journal entries, is the importance God’s Word was (and is) to me. I had to read it, hold on to it, meditate on it, and live it. When the rubber hit the road, it was God’s Word that proved to be my lifeline. Godly counsel was certainly needed and helpful; a christian doctor to recognize a chemical imbalance was a benefit; but it was God through His Word, and by His Holy Spirit that I can say I am victorious. I had to read it, hold on to it, meditate on it, and live it. For the next several months, I found myself gaining strength, struggling less with anxious thoughts. Daily, and eventually less frequently, I journaled what God was revealing to me. As I did, the heaviness began to lift. His Word was literally life to my entire being! Would I ask to again walk the path God allowed me to walk? Probably not. Did I grow closer to Him through this time of desperation? Most certainly! And I wouldn't trade it for any earthly treasure. I'm truly grateful for His Word revealed in my life and the "new thing" that I hope always remains fresh within me. For the past two weeks I have shared excerpts from my journal, thinking I would continue through January before ending. After reconsidering, I am closing with this last post. Next week, you will read a post from a blogger on the subject of burnout. Be sure to check it out. Discussion Questions
Vicki Miller and her husband, Don, have been in full-time ministry, together, for more than 33 years. They have four daughters, three sons-in-law, and three grandsons who keep their lives full of joy and laughter. Having been a pastor's wife to the same congregation for more than 25 years, Vicki now enjoys ministering alongside her husband as they serve their district's ministers and their spouses. Traveling is a shared interest between them. Encouraging ministry wives in their unique role and their walk with Jesus is a passion of Vicki's. After serving Jesus most of her life, she says, "I am still amazed at the grace and goodness of God and I pray that I never get over it." For fun, she likes to read and work on DIY projects, but especially loves spending time with family and friends. Would you like to attend Refresh Breakaway 2018 for FREE?
Comment on this blog post. That's it! You're now entered to win a Refresh Breakaway 2018 package valued at $99 (includes registration, lodging and three meals). Each time you comment on a weekly blog post, your name will be entered into the drawing. Please give your full name when commenting. Drawing ends January 31, 2018. A winner will be announced February 1, 2018 and notified by email by February 5, 2018. So, come on! We'd love to hear from you and see you at Refresh Breakaway 2018! ![]() "I found myself needing to be in His presence. I craved it, yearned for it, and sought it with my entire being." Last week, I began sharing my story (which is really God's story). I told how in January of 2011, I found myself overcome with anxiety. It was in God's presence that I began to experience His healing in my life. The journey wasn't easy. In fact it was the most difficult road I have ever walked. I would never have chosen to walk that path, but looking back, it's an experience I wouldn't trade for the world. Why? Because of what I learned about myself, but more importantly what I learned about Jesus, His grace and mercy, and the power of His Word. I continue with excerpts from my journal: January 12, 2011 “Lord, why do I wrestle so much with my thoughts? Since I was a little girl I have wanted to please you, to have a relationship with you. I was eight years old when I made a public profession of my faith. Here I am, 48 years old and struggling with fears that should not be. “Perhaps [the] struggle with my thoughts right now [is] a result of a combination of things. First, when I was about 12, I became fearful of severing my relationship with Christ. Over the years, at times, I’ve dealt with this more intently. God always brings me through. Now, I am confronted with these thoughts on an extreme level. Secondly, my body is stressed from being overextended—not having much margin in my life. “I believe the [culmination] of these two issues has brought me [to] where I am today—in desperate need of a touch from God. I do believe that God will restore my entire being and allow me to help others who may be facing similar struggles. “A tear rolls down my cheek signifying the hope I have that God will restore me! January 13, 2011 “Lord, you have been faithful! I didn’t know how I would possibly make it through the day after waking around midnight to overwhelming feelings of anxiety and restlessness, but YOU brought me through. Thank you! I’m not out of the woods because I have a lot to do, in Your time, to allow Your complete healing to occur in my life. It is a process that I hope [You] will allow me to walk through, one step at a time. I’m ready to be free of anxiety and to be completely whole in my entire being. You spoke to my heart tonight (on the way home from counseling) and assured me of Your love for me and the relationship we have. You “called me out of darkness and into your marvelous light.” Thank you! January 14, 2011 "It’s so easy to want the solution to a problem right now. I’m learning that the joy and the reward come through the process. Had God instantly healed me of anxiety I would, no doubt, be missing what He is teaching me through this [happening in my life]." I’m learning that the joy and the reward come through the process. “As I lay praying in my bed, wrestling with thoughts, God brought to my mind the scripture, ‘Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.’ [1 Peter 5:7 KJV] A common verse, yet I realized that I had not been doing so. I had been holding on to things, unaware that I hadn’t ‘cast’ it upon him. Getting out of bed, I looked up 1 Peter 5:7 and read, ‘Casting all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.’ [NIV] I don’t think the word anxiety had ever [stood] out before, but God spoke to my heart and what a release I felt! "The previous verse reads, ‘Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand that he may lift you up in due time.’ I feel that God is helping me do that as I surrender to counsel...” As women in ministry, it’s much easier to say, “Let me pray for you," or ask, "How may I help you?" than to make aware our own inadequacies and need for help. How many times have we been guilty of referring our congregants to professional counselors, but would never go there ourselves. After all, we're supposed to be strong and have it all together...aren't we? Wouldn't that indicate weakness? As God began to do a new thing in me, it required intentional time with Him, but it also required laying aside my pride and admitting that I needed godly counsel. As God began to do a new thing in me, it required intentional time with Him, but it also required laying aside my pride and admitting that I needed godly counsel. What "things" are you holding on to that need to be surrendered to Jesus? What walls are blocking you from receiving the help you need? What story has God given you to share to proclaim His goodness in your life? Meet me here next Monday, as I continue sharing my story (which is really His story). ![]() Vicki Miller and her husband, Don, have been in full-time ministry, together, for more than 33 years. They have four daughters, three sons-in-law, and three grandsons who keep their lives full of joy and laughter. Having been a pastor's wife to the same congregation for more than 25 years, Vicki now enjoys ministering alongside her husband as they serve their district's ministers and their spouses. Traveling is a shared interest between them. Encouraging ministry wives in their unique role and their walk with Jesus is a passion of Vicki's. After serving Jesus most of her life, she says, "I am still amazed at the grace and goodness of God and I pray that I never get over it." For fun, she likes to read and work on DIY projects, but especially loves spending time with family and friends. Would you like to attend Refresh Breakaway 2018 for FREE?
Comment on this blog post. That's it! You're now entered to win a Refresh Breakaway 2018 package valued at $99 (includes registration, lodging and three meals). Each time you comment on a weekly blog post, your name will be entered into the drawing. Please give your full name when commenting. Drawing ends January 31, 2018. A winner will be announced February 1, 2018 and notified by email by February 5, 2018. So, come on! We'd love to hear from you and see you at Refresh Breakaway 2018! ![]() It was about 2 a.m., January 5, 2011, when I suddenly awoke from a deep sleep. My heart was beating rapidly and my chest pounding. I struggled to breath. Thinking I must be having a heart attack, my husband called 911. Not ready to die at the young age of 48, I succumbed to the not-so-thrilling ambulance ride to the hospital. Tests were run, after which the doctor declared my heart was fine. I was suffering from anxiety. I was on overload from just having come through a busy holiday schedule. Not having a real Christmas break, I was back in school teaching full time, serving as our church's worship leader, being mama to teenage daughters, a pastor’s wife, and having our daughter and her family of four living with us for a couple of months. This episode of panic was only one of many, but launched me into a season of questioning my faith; Was I really God's child? I was fearful of losing my salvation and furthermore began seeking the Lord like no other time in my life. I found myself needing to be in the His presence. I craved it, yearned for it, and sought it with my entire being. Waking in the night (abnormal for me) or in the early-morning hours, I would make my way to my reading chair with my Bible, the book, Sparkling Gems from the Greek by Rick Renner, and my journal. It was on these daily occasions where God’s Word would come to life and I would record the specific and precious whispers of His never-ending love for me. From this journal, I would like to share with you, this week and in the next four blogposts, how God restored me through His Word. I share, not for my own glory (no glory here!) but for three reasons: 1) to be obedient to the Lord; 2) to give God glory for His grace and mercy in my life; and 3) to give hope to any woman who is possibly going through a similar trial. January 11, 2011 5:00 A.M. “As I wrestle with the anxiety that seems to have slipped upon me, God once again has proven Himself faithful through His Word. Restless, I turn to God this morning. Rising from my bed, I seek comfort through His Word, (turning) to Isaiah 43:18 and following. I had read this passage earlier, but had failed to write it down. Now, God reminds me of what He has already spoken. ‘Forget not the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. The wild animals honor me, the jackals, and the owls, because I provide water in the desert and streams in the wasteland, to give drink to my people, my chosen, the people I formed for myself that they may proclaim My praise.’ Isaiah 42:18-21..." The relevance of this passage to me was the fact that I was struggling with a mismanaged life; one that was out of balance physically, spiritually, socially, and emotionally. I was on overload. Yet, God was giving me the opportunity to see Him, experience Him, and to know Him like never before. He was doing “a new thing" in me. Are you stressed out, worn out, and desiring a slower-paced year than last? Are you ready to put some things behind you? While a new year does not change our circumstances, it can and should be a time to reflect on how we have managed God's directives for our lives. A new year gives us the opportunity to allow God to do "a new thing" in each of us. Meet me here next Monday, as I continue sharing my story (which is really His story). ![]() Vicki Miller and her husband, Don, have been in full-time ministry, together, for more than 33 years. They have four daughters, three sons-in-law, and three grandsons who keep their lives full of joy and laughter. Having been a pastor's wife to the same congregation for more than 25 years, Vicki now enjoys ministering alongside her husband as they serve their district's ministers and their spouses. Traveling is a shared interest between them. Encouraging ministry wives in their unique role and their walk with Jesus is a passion of Vicki's. After serving Jesus most of her life, she says, "I am still amazed at the grace and goodness of God and I pray that I never get over it." For fun, she likes to read and work on DIY projects, but especially loves spending time with family and friends. Would you like to attend Refresh Breakaway 2018 for FREE?
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